Finally....

So after almost 7 years of marriage (yes! SEVEN!!), I have finally decided I shall stop procrastinating  and booked myself an appointment at KKH. I shall face my fear. The fear knowing that I might actually really be infertile.

I have been married to the most wonderful husband (sometimes, err.. lets make that MOST times, can be preeetttyyy annoying!) for almost 7 years now. I have met him in 2004 and 3 years later, we were forced to settle down by my parents (It's a long but interesting story. Nevertheless, stupid on my end. But no, I was not pregnant and it was not a shotgun marriage!) However, few months after I met him, I came down with super duper bad cramps in my tummy which I felt was 10 times worse than the normal menses cramp I had. I felt like air bubbles bursting in my tummy and just before it bursts, it gave me a sharp pain every single time. I was still taking my degree at that time and so my parents brought me to a private gynae (because I had no $$ of my own). Gynae did a scan straight away and detected something. Thank God I was already 21 at that point and so the gynae requested to speak to me ALONE. He told me I had a blood infection in my womb and it needed to be removed. The cause? Sexual intercourse. It is a type of STD (I was young and stupid and had a few sexual partners) but being too young, I did not ask him for details but just cried in the room (I was a very emotional girl. Still am.) He told me I needed a day surgery to remove the infection by laparoscopy and we booked ourself into Mount Alvernia Hospital. The gynae understandingly told my parents that I had a blood cyst and it has to be removed asap. So the procedure went fine and after that I no longer felt pain. But what he told me on my follow ups with him was something I can never forget. He said "You might have difficulty conceiving in the future." Knowing that you might never be a mother at the age of 21 was quite a blow to me. Also because I love kids and had always wanted a big family. I kept the news from my family but did tell my husband (then-boyfriend). Before we were married, we did not have protected sex (I told you I was young and stupid!) but I never got pregnant. But being young and stupid (yes! I was really THAT stupid!) I just ignored it.

So fast forward to today, I never ever got pregnant no matter how hard we tried. (I love the trying part. Teehee.) My menses are always regular - 29 days cycle. But I was never pressured to go see a doctor and my husband (lets call him Mr. F) never asked me to. But now that I have reached 31, I suddenly felt the pangs of urgency to want to become a mother (also because my BIL is getting married and I do not want his wife pregnant before me!!).  And so I booked for a fertility check up at KKH to see Dr. Tan Heng Hao (he is a senior consultant and also the head of the department).

My first appointment was on 25th April 2014. Whilst I was waiting, I have never felt so nervous! I was so nervous and tense that my blood pressure (which normally was normal) suddenly shot to 145 that day!! Dr. Tan was pretty nice. Told him about my history and he did a Pap Smear. He then told me that maybe my fallopian tubes could be blocked and if that is the case, I will need IVF. I returned to KKH to have my blood taken for a few tests (4 to be exact!) on 2nd May. On the 15th May, I accompanied Mr. F to KKH to 'donate' his sperm for semen analysis. I know he was quite reluctant but it is something that has to be done. I have an appointment on 22nd May for HSG, which I am a wreck about, especially after I read about the procedure.

Till the 22nd May......

Much love,
Miss Pinc